Cool program from ISMA!! Let's register and participate! :)

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AUSMAT GRAND DINNER 2009

Assalamualaikum and hye to everyone..

Will miss you and your politics jokes Ust Wan! he3 :)

To those who are new to this blog you can hit the pause button on the right top corner of the screen, and make me shut up. hi3 It is only an introductory remark, so I'm sorry if it ever annoys you. At least, it helps those who miss my voice! ha3

Well, by the way, this time around I just wanna apologize to everyone I know at INTEC, especially beloved lecturers and classmates. You see, I made a lot of mistakes, and I and the imperfect me, can't help from hurting people's hearts sometimes, whether or not you people tell me about it. Please, I'm asking for your sincerest forgiveness, and practically, I never meant to hurt anyone. Sorry again.

As huge as the apology it is, please do also accept my greatest thanks to all of you who have contributed to the colours of my life at INTEC- you guys made it even more colourful-at least it's not only purple, yellow and blue! ha3(UiTM colours). It (the Ausmat life) lasted last night, during the dinner, though I really didn't meet everyone, fine though, so long as we can still keep in touch via facebook, email etc..

Thank you very much again to everyone I know, and I must tell you that if even we never talked or had a chat, it's not because I'm too cocky or because I think that I'm too good and 'high-standard' for you guys to mingle with, but most of the time, if not all, I am a guy who prefers silence as a gesture. It really doesn't mean that I don't like you or what so ever. We are still friends, aren't we? Thanks again for understanding.. (ni syok sendiri ke ape? :P)

Hope to see all of you again in the future! Take care and let's pray for the upcoming SACE results disclosure... :) LOVE you all!! :)

Wassalam...

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That’s why I wanna become a doctor.. :)

Assalamualaikum everyone..

I'm sorry for the long silence it has been. I felt uncomfortable somehow. I know I really must always update this blog, because that is the real passion I have since I started blogging. By the way, exam was over and it's time to leave everything to Allah the Almighty while keep praying for his help. Nevertheless, I'm still stuck inside my room, sweating out to finish a montage for Ausmat dinner next week, another one after countless hours spent for class farewell party's slideshow presentation. Me and my art studio, here I come Grand Dinner! :)

              Sorry everyone, I'm now busy spending time in my so-called art studio-Cemara it is.. :P

Today, I had my lunch at Al-Rafi Bistro with my laptop and suddenly there was one Indian guy; a waiter, came by and greeted me to ask for a favor! He wanted me to help retrieve an MMS sent to a phone from India- her daughter’s photo, he told me. This guy seemed like having absolutely no idea on what to do. At first I thought that his daughter must be studying there for so long, so I could feel how much he would have missed her. And I had no problem to lend a hand, for that matter. The MMS can only be retrieved via internet though, but thank God I was online so I got started. And once the related webpage appeared on the screen, I was taken aback! Ha? It was a photo of a cute little baby girl! This girl… studies in India? Hahaha.. Can’t be.. I bet she can’t even read. Well, anyone can tell that. I am not too smart to be able to tell this little common sense. The question was, so what is this guy doing here while having a little daughter in India whom needs to be taken care of? My goodness, it turned out that my assumption was wrong. He is actually an Indian who has just come here to earn some money for family. No wonder his face was not that familiar compared to other men working there. And when I asked, he said that he’ll only return home after 1 year. My heart was shaken. Perhaps I never felt more grateful until I realized how much other people have to struggle and sacrifice for their loved ones. The incident made me love my family even more, and of course, made me homesick too!! Uwaa~ The thing is, I can’t forget the smile he drew on his face after I helped him out, downloaded the photo, transferred it to my own mobile and then to his, via Bluetooth. Because that’s what he actually wanted-a photo of beloved daughter in his mobile (and he never knew how to)-so that he can always have it with him. A smile from a dad who must be missing his daughter so much, I can see sparkles in his eyes the moment he said “thank you..”  I wonder where can I get that kind of expression again. That’s what I like about helping people and that’s why I am always happy when I can make others happy, because I love those smiles and I love to see people smiling. And that’s why, and it is really the reason why, I wanna become a doctor.. :)

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TgL: Everyone my name is Mohd Amirul Asyraf Mohd Hanaffi. My pseudonym is Ibnu Hanaffi. So please call me Asyraf. Peace!! :)


 

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Apologies

Yeah I know, apology is an uncountable noun. But at least, it, in what ever way, implies how much wrong have I done to people around me. So, apologies from me.

Exam is really around the corner.
Love you all. Who ever you are. Forgive me please ya? I really wana go to Aussie. And become a doctor.
Ya Allah, my only God, guide me through all these puzzles of life..

Assalamualaikum all.... :)

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SACE Exam here I come!!

Scary though. I don't feel like feeling it. Sigh~ Instead of struggling to prepare for the grave crucial final exam I am battling hard to find the study mood now.Within merely two weeks left, what drives me now is only the family. Love you Ma, Abah, Along, Kakda, Sa, Ipas, Alin, Mawaddah, Aiman, Anis and Afiq!! Can't wait to go back to Terengganu. Will conduct an English class for all of you liitle bros and sis.. ! mmuah!! :P

Wassalam...
P/S: SACE Exam 2009 (November 2-17)

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The Disengagement

gee~ do not misunderstand please.. :P

Love is like water. It flows and streams everywhere without boundaries. Mine is one that is so special. It makes me who I was before-a kind-hearted, soft-spoken and quiet guy who has no one to feel angry to. Anyone is lovely, and I have no problem loving. Life is like exchanging the good feelings you have deep inside your heart, by smiling and helping plus talking to one another. However, the ticking time has altered my love to fragility. From water, it became a bubble. It grew extra large and consequently turned to a huge bubble. Then? Someone from inside poked it and that’s it-pop! (or rather kabOOm!!) it blasted into pieces of hatred and vengeance I’ve never known and never been introduced to my entire life. My life changed. Totally, after that. I was blank. I was left in uncertainty and absolute misery. I didn’t know what to do with everything around me started to plunge me more into the darkness. The darkness of soul. The emptiness of heart. I was confused, stressed-and lonely. And me? Was no longer a loving person I used to be.

I started to justify the whole nineteen years I spent in my life all this while. My efforts, my time, my sacrifice and my money, I thought I have just squandered them all-and led a completely fruitless embarrassing period of life-which lasted for almost two decades or may be more.

Now I know I must move on. Just that. I know many things await me to shape my own future. And of course I am totally on it! What is life without difficulties. Thinking of that, I compose the following piece;

Brain is a weakness,

We use it to forget problems,

But problems don't have brains,

So they never forget us,

Use brain to face problems,

Then brain is now a strength.

-Ibnu Hanaffi-

It’s not about what they are or how many of them. It’s about how we deal with them. And the way I deal, once beaten twice shy-big deal indeed! So much of whining and complaining and even blaming, what do I get in return? Nothing. An absolute nil and a sheer null. After all, it’s always best to have gratitude and thankfulness for He is the best Whom rewards and pours happiness upon His servants. I went to Raja Uda Library in Shah Alam and came across this proverb from Arab that says;

I complained because I had no shoes UNTIL I saw a man who had no feet.

Simply put, be grateful dude. Accept things the way they are because certainly, Allah has written them all and our fate are already being predestined and preordained. What we can do now is pray and spend more time with supplication asking for His help and guidance.. Many people are just not as lucky as we are. Just look at what happened in Padang, Indonesia. My prayers for them. However, always true it is, fate and destiny, should not stop us from doing more to gain more. Allah surely knows best. And about being lucky, some say that there are people who are born lucky, but all people are lucky to be born in the first place. Hey, we are the 100-meter-race winning sperms! Thanks to Allah. And be thankful must I.

Yaeh, I hope so. Always, if not all the time, things are easier said than done. At least, I’ve got the right thing to do. Just, do it. Sigh~

What’s the real point I want to put up in this post, I myself wonder. These are them by the way. Firstly, I actually wanted to apologize if I have been rude or even annoying to anyone I merely know for not so long. You know what, like I said, you should enjoy knowing a better and nicer me. I have been going through tough times, that’s all. Just promise to be ‘myself’ again. Except for the part that I am not going to let myself be taken for granted even once more. Don’t you ever dare to.. ups, let’s put a dot, just there. No need to further dig up the painful past. I’ve thrown the shovel after all. Bygones are bygones. And I am moving on.

Secondly, I hereby would like to officially declare a period of disengagement to whom it may concern. I have prepared all final gestures and completed them by giving my all. And one might not know that it is the way I say good bye. I am moving on. And I want to disengage. By giving, and not taking. I have had enough. No more. Big NO NO.

As for now, it will be a considerably long silence without any posts (at least not this long) as I want to really focus on my extremely crucial life or death final SACE exam commencing from Nov 2-17 2009. Hope and really hoping Allah will help me through all these. As a final remark for this time, I would like to say thanks to great people like Farah Farhana, Masturah, Ira and many more. You girls’ presence is a simple proof that I am still having faith in some girls. Not yet have I came to an extent of being misogynistic. Neither am I a gay! By the way, aboy, all the best SPM! Not forgetting, all juniors at MCKK. Well, I am 99.9 % sure not even one present boy from MCKK know about my blog. Ha3 never mind, I just do not want to make too much noise. Let only some people know about what I have had to say, complain and wish. So long as they are not absurd. Will miss you everyone.

Salam sayang from me~

"I am getting old yet missing the ‘old’ me.."

-the OLD Ibnu Hanaffi-

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

gee~ (jugak).. another product of Ibnu Hanaffi's Productions

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The Big Family in Red (2009)

The image background is our lovely abode. Do pay a visit if you so happen see it.

From left: Along, Sa, Alin, Anis, Afiq, Aiman, Mawaddah, Ifah, Kakda, me

Backrow: Ma and Abah

Assalamulaikum to all...

Life has been busy again as class started last Monday so I am moving on with many more obstacles to handle.

But that's life. I would rather cry than to just complain and do nothing. Will post something about the disengagement some time later. A post that will disclose about everything I felt all this while and how have I decided to move on. Life is short but I love it-really!! And I can feel it, I may not stay too long on earth. Let's just pray that I can make myself strong to use the little time I have now as wise as possible. Cool, I am not dying la. I just feel like dying. Who knows if Mohd Amirul Asyraf Mohd Hanaffi only remains a history by tomorrow. Oh Allah I pray may at least I have a chance to get married first! ha3 No I am not serious. I submit myself wholly to Allah the Almighty for He knows better than anyone else. I submit myself totally to Him and accept all His decision predestined for me. Allah, I love you..

Now to cut it short, let me just talk a little bit about the last eid mubarak celebration. Wow! It was fun. It was great. I enjoyed my time spent with family the most. Many things happened and make me feel  as if that would be the very last time to feel them. Am I dying? I am leaving. I just feel like leaving. That's all.

I love my parents, brothers and sisters even more than ever. And only those who ever had the chance to be in a big family would definitely agree with me. To a certain extent, I have been ignoring them. But Allah is great. When nothing turned out to be right, only then did I know that I have them to back me up and make me smile. No love is as true as that of mine to them. Others are fake. Hey my mom promised to find me an ustazah. One day. Amiin.., Hee~ cool...love it!! :P

Family is now my first priority. No other. I love you all. And I thank Allah for granting me with all these wonderful gifts.I am grateful. I love you, Allah... :)

Stay tuned for the disengagement in my next post! Chill!!

I go (Talentime)
By:Pete Teo

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life youre my sweetest nightingale
But I cant hear it here no more

And I go
I go

Hush now, dont shake or break
Words have fallen silently like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadows by the tracks upon your face

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TgL: Everyone my name is Mohd Amirul Asyraf Mohd Hanaffi. My pseudonym is Ibnu Hanaffi. So please call me Asyraf. Peace!! :)

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Salam Eid Mubarak to everyone.. :)

Hye ya! I forgot about Ramadhan? Syawal? No!! Oh God, Allah the only one, forgive me..

Everyone, I wanna wish all of you A Happy Eid Mubarak and hope all of you are in the pinky minky of health. Stay tuned for Big Family in Red in my next post! May Allah bless all of you.. :) I am not emos k? :)

Assalamualaikum..

P/S: My greatest thanks to Ira (Nur Azira Bte Tarmuzi) for the wonderful surprise on Aidilfitri! Appreciate the handmade card a lot! :) Thank you my sweet friend.- Hope you read my blog. :)

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TgL: Everyone my name is Mohd Amirul Asyraf Mohd Hanaffi. My pseudonym is Ibnu Hanaffi. So please call me Asyraf. Peace!! :)

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Chilled!!

Chill how?

How? How would I? Gulping chunks of ices surely not a good idea. The bitterness, screams and tears that congeal into hatred; these are what I must swallow. Down the throat. Taken for granted. I just hate it. I am infuriated. Totally.

Who? No one. I was yelling at myself. Actually, that’s because Abg Alwi said always put the responsibility (or rather blame) on yourself first. Alright. I did. No I didn’t. It seems so difficult to control the battle between the evil and the bright sides of me. I thought life would have made me stronger and tougher-no I am even more sensitive, instead.

I am not a girl. I am not a boy. Neither in between. I am a guy!! I have grown up! I know what to do. I must pick and choose. There are many things I have got to give. To lose and give in. Farewell to them. I am moving on. So you think I am scared? So you think you are God? Think.. oh no, think again..

Sally has got herself alone. So has I. Do I care? Yes, absolutely I do. Screwing up everything is always not a choice. It should have been avoided. Life and its lessons let me know who are liars and who are not. Who are hypocrites and who proves that sincerity is what he/she really lives with. Hypocrite!! Hate you fellas!! Well, hate yourself la Aleng!! Grr~

Right. Fair enough. Life and all its contents, and their pairs. Men and women; black and white; true and false; nice and cruel; long and short; smart and retarded: hot and chill; you name it! Pairing up and then emerge with purpose. One, defines the other..

Happy and sad. What today has got to teach about tomorrow? And what tomorrow has got to say about yesterday? It says you will understand the word gain once you experience the word loss. You learn to feel the fury of hatred once you got the chance to love and to be loved. You fathom how easy it is to be black once you painted your way with whitish snow. You have got to understand what happiness brings once you live in bitterness and misery. And you appreciate life if you really know why death exists. Have you got what it means?

It means forget about all these and go do something else. Something better. Sally has got to be alone. She cried of her own choice. Don’t cry over a spilt milk. Unless you spill it when Maghrib is near.

Go prepare your meal. And enjoy breakfast with family and friends. Allah knows what you are doing. Take care Aleng..

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Sally Sendiri (The Lonely Sally)
By: Peter Pan


Bila Sally mencariku
Biarkan dia terbang jauh
Dalam hatinya hanya Satu
Jauh hatinya hanyaku

Katakan ku takkan datang
Pastikan ku takkan kembali
Lalu biarkan dia menangis
Lalu biarkan dia pergi

Sally kau selalu sendiri
Sampai kapan pun sendiri
Hingga kau lelah menanti
Hingga kau lelah menangis

Thank you Faris for keeping me company..

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I know I've had to learn the word give up.. Fine, if that is what they requested. They don't know I have heart, too! .. ~

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Evolution VS Creation

Assalamulaikum and greetings to everyone.

Let us recite Al-Quran and understand its meaning ya? .... :)

The next article commences with a quote as follows:

“They will find it difficult, those who have taken authority as the truth, rather than truth, as the authority.”

In the month of Ramadhan, Al-Quran, the Divine Book of Revelation was first revealed to Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h) to guide us to the straight path that will lead us to the only truth and thus, wonderful happiness in the Hereafter. In conjunction with the Nuzul Quran event on Ramadhan 17, I am compelled to continue blogging by raising an inevitably well-known subject in the world of science-Evolution.

To begin with, let us ponder on the meaning of these verses from Surah Al-Baqarah (The Heifer) line 1-4:

 

"Alif Lam Mim(1). This is the Book; in it is guidance sure, without doubt, to those who fear Allah (2); Who believe in the Unseen; are steadfast in prayer, and spend out of what We have provided for them (3); And who believe in the Revelation sent to you, and sent before your time, and (in their hearts) have the assurance of the Hereafter (4)."

 

The Al-Quranul Karim is none other than a primary source of reference to those who have true faith in Allah and live by its messages. It is a proof of the creation, a manual to mankind’s proper and accepted way of life as well as a strong weapon to reject nonsense assumptions and ideologies by the Unbelievers like Charles Darwin and those who follow him.

 

What is the theory of evolution?

Oh ya, this is Darwin. Excuse me? Oh ya, this is before he evolved to Orang Utan.. he3

Also known as Darwinism, this theory was proposed by Charles Darwin, an English naturalist long even before science ever knew what genetic is. This theory says that living organisms originate from inanimate matters co-incidentally and then gradually evolve by natural selection. The concept is also being described as the survival of the fittest.

Having said that, let us go through point by point on why is this theory wrong and unacceptable, be it from religion perspective or even from that of pure science.

First, this theory is merely an assumption as admitted by Darwin himself in his book of The Origin of Species. After nineteenth century, when knowledge about genetics became widespread, many scientific findings eventually rendered this theory a blithering fallacy that is both unscientific and nonsense.

This theory does not only deny creation and never accept the divine intervention in the origin of life, it also blatantly claims that the first life exists naturally without any design, plan or arrangement. This is nevertheless, contradicting with even the unassailable rules of Biology. The claim is inevitably false. One good example for us to easily understand this is the appearance of worms in meat. Initially, it was believed that the generation was spontaneous, that is, worms exist from meat? Those with scientific knowledge will quickly point out that this is wrong. In real fact, it is proven in nature that worms are actually carried by flies in the form of larvae and are invisible to the naked eye. Understood? Easy right?

Following this fact and reality, many scientists and researchers like a Russian, Alexander Oparin conducted theses to prove that life could originate by co-incidence. The result? Over time, what they attempted only doomed to failures. Advocates of evolution were forced by truth to give in and confess their mistakes and misjudge.

One primary and significant reason why has this theory failed itself is because, even an organism deemed the simplest have incredibly complex structures. So, even with the most sophisticated and developed laboratories we have on earth now, a living cell cannot be produced by bringing together organic chemicals. Hence, isn’t it true that life was created, and not spontaneously came to being? Let’s put that in deep contemplation.

Next, it is also being calculated that the probability for a protein of 500 amino acids to be synthesized spontaneously is 1 in 10 ^950!! Dude, that is undoubtedly impossible as in real fact, a probability smaller than 1 over 10 ^50 is practically deemed not possible. Apart from that, there’s also a chicken and egg issue here. The DNA and some specialized enzymes. Which one does exist first? It is impossible for both to occur simultaneously as in chicken and egg. Why? Because for a DNA to replicate (make a copy of itself), it needs a certain enzyme but this enzyme could not exist without its synthesis, which requires the coding of genetic information stored in the DNA. So? Just say bye bye to both chicken and egg. The answer is no other than the existence of creation. And obviously, they are created by Allah, the Almighty, the All-knowing.

Well they are still a number of other things to point out but let's not make this too long. Perhaps we may continue discussing about this sometime later. Alright everyone? I would like to end this post with the following translation of verses:

They said, “Glory be to You! We have no knowledge except what You have taught us. You are the All-Knowing, the All-Wise."

(Surat al-Baqara: 32)

Wallahuaklam.. (Allah surely knows better)

Wassalam.. :)

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RAMADHAN; THE HOLY MONTH

It's during this month that many important events occurred in Islam. It is during this month that many victories were made histories. And it is this month that many whom look for improvements and changes will love for its arrival and cry for its leave. We love Ramadhan..

Dear all,

Why on one occasion, many pagans finally decided to submit themselves to God the Creator and embrace a religion? Take note that these group of people are academics or thinkers who only accept things with evidence and proof (A good quality we should emulate-but there are certain things we don't understand and don't need to but mere a responsibility and an indicator of faith to follow them if they were commanded by Allah). How many among us are Muslims because we were born into a Muslim family and not because we chose to? Are we making a choice or are we just following? Are we a true Muslim?

The answer to why did these pagan people eventually trust in God is contributed by the acknowledgement of Big Bang Theory by long debating scientists. How is this related? Long time ago, before mankind understood even a bit about the universe, Al-Quran the holy book of Islam was sent down to Prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H and within this great book of words of Allah, Big Bang is already mentioned!! The earth, the universe, sun and stars were once combined as one entity before a big bang occurs and let them expand-and still expanding until today.

In Surah Al-Anbiya' 21:30 (the translation) as follows..

Do not the Unbelievers see that the heavens and the earth were joined together (as one unit of creation), before We clove them asunder? We made from water every living thing. Will they not then believe?

Amiin~ Allah is great

Many other things are already explained in the holy book of Qoran. In Surah As-Sajjadah, it's also clarified on how big bang happened at six stages-which was then agreed upon by scientists who never actually knew that it's already written!! Allah is great..

Well, it's 2.52 am in the morning. I am not sure why am I doing this now. Need to wake up at 5 am later to eat some food for energy supply for the whole day. Fasting month is enjoyable. It offers tough jobs with tremendous merits and rewards from Allah the Most Generous, the Most Wealthy- one of its own kind, that are not available in other months.

Let's grab the chance and every opportunity we have right now to go for them. I am looking forward to write more about the Great holy book of Qoran. Allah please help me through the way.

Regards, everyone.

Wassalam... :)

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A Person; I admire..

Knowing that great message lies behind this gorgeous pink rose.. and some call it fen hong mei gui? :)

Who would find it easy to forget someone you have been loving so much? Whatever this person did to you will receive a one eye turned blind treatment. I am a very soft-hearted guy I never find it easy to hate people. Though when I have hatred, that would be the most furious me at a wrong time, and maybe at a wrong place. The more I love someone, the more I might hate the person If it turns to be that way-but seriously, I despise this feeling, it makes me feel not calm and lose my focus, when I really need it (the focus) the most.

Why do I need to talk about this. Well, partly to make this post longer-not a big deal. I just wanted to express my very latent emotion I have been keeping for quite something. That I admire a person for God knows what the reasons are but maybe again it’s typical me. Easily fall into wrong and fake affections to people around me (girls of course, I am straight). Things I call love? Whop, what is love? Not a big problem. Different people would define it differently. A sage would say, love your God, that would be the best form of love-one which is not easily prevailed. One that lasts long and promises true and definite benefits in the hereafter. I long for that but of course, it’s always easier said than done.

I have no idea but life must go on. It’s etched permanently on my heart. No matter what happens. No matter. This person I admired will remain so and even if this should continue quietly, I would prefer to sacrifice and suffer something I have decided to do. My prayers and my love will both not fade away and may some day, will I find someone to replace what I have lost and fill in the emptiness I have in my soul and heart. The person is very lovely. She is very sweet. She taught me love. She taught me many things. She never knew she taught me anything. Many things. She never knew that one day when I have a daughter, I will name her with the name this person possesses. Exactly. The whole name. Not to miss even one. Though that would make her have the longest name. Six words huh? Hey, my name alone comprises three words. Mohd Amirul Asyraf-what a long name. What a lovely plan. Sigh~
Who’s the person? Everyone, her name is Siti Nurnazirah Izzati bte Bohari. Missing you dear. Missing you so much.
Sigh~

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In Search?

"Love; Before or After Marriage?" This is the topic discussed during the Islamic Studies class today. It took me a while to think about love again. I have abandoned something I've been most into for quite sometime. After I've myself been abandoned. But that's not the point. The point here is that, I keep a question swinging on my mind ; Do people pick and choose? Who are they to pick and choose? Well, I do. But not when it comes to feelings and heart. I think people are looking for perfection. Ironically, most of these perfection-seekers are imperfect themselves! Long it took for me, engaging into a quiet and deep contemplation which I myself do not enjoy doing. Rather, I would prefer to stay being whom I am now and correct the way I set my mind. And my future. I think the time will come. Allah and no one else has cut it off for me-to straightforwardly command me to stop doing something that is not right for me. Thank you Allah. It's a belief and a prayer of mine; If people do pick and choose, because they are IN SEARCH for 'someone,' I wish them all the best, because the search will culminate with meeting a person whom none other than a replacement to the replaced. Good luck dudes! We are living in a "dispose after use era" aren't we? Cool!!

-The imperfect me is entertaining himself with the sweet voice of my sweetest nightingale.. :) -

Are we disposable the way they are? Think. Oh no, think again.. :P

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The Journey Continues..

This is the book I am currently reading. Will share with all beloved readers and blog followers. Stay tuned! :)

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Islamic Renaissance- Emerging With Ease?

Remember about the mass extermination of human population planned by the elite group? This new post you are about to read has something to do with it. In a video clip I have watched about the changing world demography, I have come across something that might be the reason why are we being depopulated. Want to know why? Keep on reading..

Dear all,

Islam has long been attacked and hated by many enemies ever since the first civilisation began. And now, they are trying to cull the Muslim population because we are having a very rapid population growth rate! While this is a good news to us, the evil elite group were taken aback by many statistics that are now speaking the truth! Aha, want to know what's the statistics and what's so interesting about them? Let me begin with this explanation first.

In the study of changing numbers in community over a period of time (also known as demography), fertility rate (FR)* is used. So, in reality, for a culture to maintain itself for more than 25 years, a FR of 2.11 children per family is required. A FR of 1.3 or lower would suggest that a population is declining and there is no possibility for it to reverse. This means, over time, that particular population may reach a point of extinction! This is historically correct and even if it were to reverse, it would take approximately 80-100 years! Considering this, let's take a quick look at the FR of these countries:

France : 1.8

England : 1.6

Greece : 1.3

Germany : 1.3

Italy : 1.2

Spain : 1.1

Meanwhile, the European Union (EU) of 31 countries has an FR of 1.38. So, by looking at the above data, and consider the aforementioned explanation I have made about FR in the previous paragraph, would you be able to make your own deductions? Yes, exactly. They are all supposed to have something in common-a declining population! However, the question now is, there is indeed no decline in the current overall population of those countries! Why is that? Was I lying about the FR? Absolutely not. So? Would like to guess? Please read through..

The answer to this is very simple-It's immigration. Although native people in all countries mentioned have very low FR, people who migrate from outside into their countries are contributing to an increase in the overall population! And you know what, 90% of them are Islamic immigrations! The government of Germany, who's shocked by what's happening, has publicly declared a call for action. The following statement might explain what are they afraid of:

“The fall in the (Germany) population can no longer be stopped. Its downward spiral is no longer reversible. It will be a Muslim State by the year 2050.”

-Germany Federal Statistics Office-

Well, that's mere an introduction. :) I would like to disclose more. Let's go by country now. Moving on with the first country, France. Do you know that while its (native people) FR is only 1.8, the Muslim community who live in this country has an FR of 8.1 instead! Isn't that a big difference? That may explain why 30% children aged 20 years old or below in France are Islamic! Also, it is estimated that by 2027, 1/5 of the population will be Muslims and within 39 years, France will turn into an Islamic Republic! Cool, isn't it?

Next, the Great Britain. Over the last 30 years, the Muslim population has significantly increased from 82 000 to 2.5 millions-and that's a 30-fold increase! Netherlands, with the current 50% newborns being the Muslims, is expected to have more Muslims by half of the overall population in the next 15 years! Now, Russia is not excluded from the growing Muslim population. To date, it has 23 millions Muslim people which makes up 1/5 of the overall number of people in the country. And in just a few years, 40% of Russian Army will be Islamic! How about Belgium? Well, not bad. With 25% of the overall population being the Muslims and 50% of newborns are also Muslims, anyone would correctly predict what will it achieve in the coming decades. As a matter of fact, by 2025, one third of all European will be born to Muslim families. Plus, the German government has already forecast that the current 52 millions of Muslim population in Europe will double to 104 millions within only 20 years! Wouldn't it be a very good thing to know that Islam will be a dominant religion again? Will this indicate the coming of another great Islamic Kingdom? Be prepared for it dudes. It really is coming. And.. with ease? Take a look at this statement uttered by Muammar Al-Gaddafi of Libya which reads as follows:

“There are signs that Allah will grant victory to Islam in Europe without swords, without guns, without conquest. We don’t need terrorists, we don’t need homicide bombers. The 50 + millions Muslims (in Europe) will turn it into a Muslim continent within a few decades”

-Muammar Al-Gaddafi-

All in all, I really hope that we seek for His ultimate protection and help against our enemies. Please always bear in mind that while the future may seem favorable for us the Muslims, Allah will never assist us in anything unless we make ourselves responsible for every victory we aim to have. May Allah bless us all. Stay tuned for more interesting and uplifting posts I want to share! :P

* Fertility rate (FR) can be mathematically calculated in its own way. It is a tedious job and if you wish to know more on how is it done, please feel free to do some research ya? :)

The following is the world map with the FR of respective countries (or regions) sourced from Abortion Policies: A Global Policy by the United Nations Department of Economic and Social Affairs, Population Division published in the year 2001. Have a look! :)

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So You Think You Can Smile? The Sequel :P

As a continuation to the previous post, please kindly take a look at this one..

So you think you can smile? hehe.. soO cute, aren't they? :)

Video: Say No To Vaccines

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So You Think You Can Smile?

Sigh~please kindly read the following excerpt I took from a website..

The British government has announced that people should no longer see a doctor if they have flu symptoms and instead a system of diagnosis over the phone has been introduced without laboratory confirmation. How convenient for fixing the figures:

"Hello, I've got a cold, doc.."

"I think it's swine flu. I will tick you off.."

Do you notice the phrase in bold? For fixing the figures? Yes, they have been fixing the figures. Statistics of people infected with H1N1 virus. They want more people in the statistics. The more the 'merrier?' But...Why?

Look, we are living in a world full of threats-ones that are not obvious. Ones that seem favorable but are actually harmful! Let me make it short. What do we do when we are scared of swine flu? We look for vaccine, of course. But wait a minute, what if I tell you that it's not the flu, but the vaccine that will kill us? Aha.. sounds weird? Let me explain..

Whether we realize this or not, the evil group of elite people has long been prepared for any strategies they come up with to vanish their enemy off the earth! This thing about mass vaccination program is, believe it or not, part of the plan! They have been planning for a (if not too much to call it so) mass murder or mass-culling of the human populations.

Do not ask me why. It's a common sense. You would do anything and by any means to kill your enemies and this evil-hearted bunch of people have their own strategies-and we are their opponents. First, who on earth are involved in this agenda? Don't be surprised. This is not only about FBI, a Rockefeller, a Rothschild, Barack Obama and his fellow comrades, but man, we are also traited by WHO (World 'Hell' Organisation) and United Nations! Do not blame the name they possess. Blame those who conquer and run the organisations. Do you know what they do? By establishing all these world organisations which not to forget, is inclusive of the WTO and World Bank, they are centralising their power so that they can rule with a dictatorship that is not seen by many. European Union (EU) is a good example. They dictate by creating policies that must be complied with by the union members. And if we are part of them, we are one of their victims. Hey, they are preying upon us without us knowing! Would we just let it be? Let me continue with the issue now.

Everyone, if you are still unclear about this agenda let me make it simpler for you. I am talking about new biological weapon and strategies used to destroy human population. How? They produced the virus (Swine flu virus, H1N1) in laboratories and spread them off! Why? Will they kill us with the flu virus? No, not so fast dudes. It's even more tricky. Flu is only an initiator. It's the vaccine that kill. They create the flu so that people are demanding for something that will kill themselves-the vaccine! From the article that I have read, it's stated that even HIV and the previous bird flu virus (H5N1) were created in laboratories. Is it true? Hey, I am not the one who should decide. I am asking everyone here to investigate. On our own. And now, moving on, let's go deeper into the issue.

No doubt, this agenda will not materialise without the help from important parties like pharmaceutical industry and health centers. And yup, the leading pharmaceutical products providers are in the team. They are Baxter International and Novartis. Not to forget, the internationally well known CDC, the Center for Disease Control and Prevention which is based in United States is also featuring. And this is the way they dictate. They control and dominate the medicine and pharmaceutical areas, and not surprising, the health policies worldwide-through WHO absolutely. Note: Baxter and Novartis produce and provide much of flu vaccines worldwide. So, can't we see that we are blatantly being made as victims and servants by these group of deceptive stupidiots (stupid and idiotic)?

Swine flu pandemic is not new. It is indeed, the re-run of the plan. Earlier in 1976, they have already had a trial. At that particular year in New Jersey, an army recruit was confirmed died of Swine flu. And do you want to know what happened next? The guy was the only one killed by the flu but after a massive vaccination program by the government, 25 more people were reported to die of the vaccine injected to them! Plus, hundreds of others were badly injured. And of course, they gave their many excuses to protect the hidden agenda. Oh ya, why Americans? Don't be surprise and don't get it wrong. These elite group do not work for Americans or even the country. They work for their very few who are in the groups!

One more thing, and this is very interesting. Do you know when was the flu vaccine (which is now being distributed worldwide) officially patented? August 26, 2008, seven months before the first Swine flu outbreak in Mexico in April! Look, what do we conclude from this. They have been prepared with the 'killer' vaccine in advance before they let the virus do the rest of the jobs for them. They just can't wait, can they? And do we know why vaccines are taken NOT only once? haha they think they are smart. This is why. Taking vaccines a few times is part of the planned strategy. It is called a three-vaccine system. The first injection is to turn off the white blood cells-our primary soldiers for immune system. The second is to introduce the killing virus into the body (the body will not react with the virus as immune system is already turned off). Then here we go. The third injection will turn the system on again. And can you expect what will happen next? Of course, our body will produce great amount of antibodies which do not only target the virus (antigen) but also our own body! Hey, how would it feel to be killed by our own immune system? Murdered from inside? I guess it tickles, doesn't it?

I think I have been elaborating long on this satanic agenda. It's again very not rightful to speculate anything but I am just doing my part to disseminate things and informations which I think is very important. I do not want anyone to take this rawly without any intention to check and confirm by yourselves. This is just a warning to me and all beloved readers and blog followers so that we are not easily fooled and victimised. Please feel free to drop some comments.

Through policy, the government (I am not referring to Malaysian government) is making it compulsory for parents to get their babies and children injected with vaccines. The question is, do the vaccines protect or do they kill?

Run, kids, run!! And save your life from being the victims at an early age. Doesn't mean that oldfolks should not mind trying! :P Everyone must protect yourselves and families.. :) Cheers!!

Wallahuaklam.. (Allah surely knows better)

P/S: As it seems that the world is no longer a safe place to live in, so you think you can smile? Of course you can. And please do. Though I shuddered the moment I knew about this. I am not paranoid, ain't I? By the way, let's fight for our rights~

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THE MUST-KNOW DISCLOSURE

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

To everyone who has been following my blog. Currenty, I am doing a serious reading and own research on the greatest conspiracy perpetrated by the evil world elite. I am compelled to share this in my blog after watching a series of 50-episode-video clips entitled 'The Arrival' -thanks to Faris Anis. Basically, it is about a plan called 'the New World Order' which has been planned by the current dominating world powers which are helped by the satanic powers and assistance. They have been delivering deceptive propagandas which has made most mankind fooled by nothing but bullshits. The September 11, the Holocaust and many others are terrible historical events that were man-made to satisfy their own interests! They were planned though seem as if they weren't. The world is expected to end with a war between two sides of two distinct bloodlines. It is too early to speculate, though. What matters now is to prepare ourselves so that we don't trust anyone blindly and plunge into their demonic enticing traps. Stay tuned! :)

William Guy Carr, a Canadian who authored a book that reveals the greatest secret of worldly agenda

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My dad-Will I feel the same way you did?

It was July 11 and the whole family were going to Nilai, and then Malacca to give my younger sister a company on her registration day at UniKL university. And the night before, we went to a Giant Mall and the thing that I was thinking of at that night almost made me cry.

My dad is not a man from a well-to-do family. Neither is my mom. But having 10 children in the family is perhaps what that makes them strong and happy. In the mall, while waiting for my sisters and mom to buy some stuffs, I don't know how but it so happened that I saw him far from somewhere-while keeping an eye on adik-adik whom was playing around at a mini playground. From the gesture, the way he acted himself, the face expression and kind of stares he gave-I know, he must be having something in his mind.

My dad has never had the same life I am enjoying right now. A big happy family plus caring and loving parents like him and my mom-he never had-And I am 90% sure about this. He seemed to feel as if he is in an environment which is strange to him. No, not that he has never been to any malls or superhypermarket all his life. But because perhaps he never had the opportunity to experience how it feels to be a rich dad-to have millions of money and buy anything he wants around him-and that's what he might have thought of-a different kind of life. However I know, he as a strong dad who always denies to buy new clothes even during Eid-Fitri (just to make sure that we have enough money to buy ours), is a dad whom we in the family respect and love the most. He always tells us that it's not money but success in life that he wants from all of us.

Dearest beloved dad, what ever you felt at that moment you must know that i was crying for you. And let me promise with all my might (with Allah willing) I will make you proud and make sure that all your sacrifice all this while paid-off. We love you daddy-mom's too.. :)

Because they said this is the only relationship that will last forever-your family..

The moments spent with family were the ones most precious in my life..

At least I can fly for seconds coz I'm not as heavy la along! ha3 :P

I know Ayah Pin is from Terengganu but me and Along (left) were doing no ritual here.. :P

Living in a big simple family has taught me a lot about the true meaning of love..

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What begins during the beginning?

Fi amanillah~ (under the supreme protection of Allah)

Finally I started a blog to have a well-documented journey of my life because it seems like my brain alone does not have the capacity to hold too much memories. Especially when in life, most remembered memories are the bad ones-which, easily sweep away those that can make me chuckle and laugh. As time passes and many truth unfolds, I thank Allah for allowing me to understand things I never did, before.

Firstly, let me rush not to really make these blog beautifully perfect and regularly updated. Beautiful and perfect are both semantic and subjective, though. Perhaps this is only a trial. An ordinary move. Aiming for extra ordinary outcome. Though this is just to get used to blogging-something that has become part of most people's lives nowadays-be it the readers or the bloggers-well I do not want to challenge anyone I am still way too new and novice in this stuff.

Finally, I have to always remind myself not to fear what I don't possess because if they are what I really need, I will have to look for them. What I already have are what that fear me most as they may be ones that I don't need. It is to me, easier to scavenge for what I want, then to let go what's with me that i don't like.

But first, let me also shower with my sincerest thanks and gratitude to everyone I know-those who have helped a lot in order to make this publishing of the very first personal blog page of mine possible, and anyone whom might read my words and find no barriers to share your own thoughts. Thank you everyone!

And indeed, first and final are words that should not only mean to start and to end respectively. I used both in an alternate manner in the above post to simply suggest how I perceive life in general. I have had many great losses in the past. And when some may take it as the end and describe them as final, I think every loss will let me begin to find new ones-new hopes and inspirations at least. It's in fact a new beginning and a renewed journey that follow an end to something that I love so much. To those who know me well, let me tell you that this inspiration I have, etched on my heart, is because I learn not to love and leave, but to love and live instead. Friends, strangers or even anyone, let's make everyday new and fresh as the end always precedes the beginning, the way it is expected to end something that begins.. :)

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