Soliloquy

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

1. It's 12.13 am in the morning and the final ten precious nights are awake and running. So is my life. Except that it runs like a wheel, so you always have to be ready when you are at the bottom.

".... And when guidance comes to you from Me, whoever follows My guidance- there will be no fear concerning them, nor will they grieve."

Surah Al-Baqarah (2:38)

2. Sometimes you are confused when things went wrong, whether to put the blame on yourself or others but I usually prefer the former.

3. However maybe it's true that sometimes life offers you many unexpected things that require you to investigate. I am left with two options now. To stay or to leave. For the benefit of those staying and those coming in the future, I will have to go deep into what really is happening from the inside and won't let injustice prevail just because I am a Malay or because I am a Muslim.

4. I may either lose as a warrior or win another battle. 

5. Allah knows what lies ahead of me. I leave everything to Him. Maybe it is a sign to move on and start anew. After all new housemates are settling in. Perhaps another sign that someone has to leave.

6. Time will decide everything.

Good night everyone. I swear to myself that I dare to lose everything so long as He spares me my faith (eeman) and my deen (Islam).

Wallahuaklam, take care and assalamualaikum wbt ;-)

P/S: 3 goodie bags today! So happy alhamdulillah =)

Unless you understand what I am saying, this piece will remain just a soliloquy ;-)